The devil almost had me convinced that I had nothing else to say. For 5 days, I have been in prayer and in a space where I had to “unplug.” Through my own selfishness, I caused myself to relapse and I returned back to something that God was in the midst of freeing me from. With that being said, I am in the process of recovery and with recovery comes removal. In my case, removal includes the deletion of a social media. Social media is my outlet and when I become consumed in it, I will literally tell all of my business. One of my greatest reasons for doing that is because I need attention or to be heard, but also because I refuse to be bound by shame. I don’t allow people to hold me bondage with the ability to hold my own sins over my head.
This morning, I had the privilege of ministry. My favorite thing to do, because it usually ministers to my spirit as well. At the start of 2020, I was given three prophetic declarations. The first was, “I shall live and not die.” A week or two after that declaration was given, I was held at gunpoint for a robbery that was happening at my job. I knew then that the declaration was true, and a test of my faith. The second and third declarations I was given were, “prayer warrior; writer.” If you know me, then you know that praying is my least favorite thing to do, so God, with His humorous self, loves to give me things to always pray for. But if you also know me, then you know I started my first book 2 years ago and I am still on Chapter 2. My confession is, I never finish what I start because I love returning to the things that break me and spend way too much time rebuilding myself. For many years, I have begged for freedom. I have begged for a lighter assignment. To be completely honest, I have begged for no assignment at all. Like, I would say, “God I’ll be cool if You just cancel all Your plans for me and just protect me.” But I was reminded today that I am apart of PURPOSE + PRIORITY.
All that means is that, what I am called to do is not supposed to make me feel good. I am purposely supposed to be uncomfortable, but I am also a priority to God. This is the difference between being created and being chosen. Every person in the Bible did not have the “privilege” of being chosen. But the ones who were chosen suffered to some degree. Whether it was in the lions den or even on the cross. Chosen people don’t ask for battles, they are assigned to battles that are uncomfortable but also fixed fights. We still have to prepare for the fight, get all suited up, look our enemies in the face, BUT we win automatically. That’s called favor by the way. Here’s the catch though, if you are truly called, when your brother/sister in Christ needs help, you strap up your boots for them as well. When one fights, we all fight. That is the body of Christ. Many people will discover that they aren’t chosen simply because they don’t like to fight. But guess what…. “that’s your business.” If you feel like the battle has been long, just know this, “you have to live long, because you have to smile longer than you have suffered.” 🤍